Jade Marcella in Scene #4 of Naughty Little Nymphos was the favorite of my boyfriend and I..

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Well, perhaps mostly me. The performances’ most memorable moment is when Jade utters “Oh! Professor!” while he is ramming his ugly sausage into her on top of his desk. It is really funny to me because the grosser and more demeaning the older white professor character is with his slacks pulled down just enough to get his dick and white butt out of them, THE HOTTER IT IS TO ME! Ha ha! When he is naked, of course, white socks still on.

I think it is because there is an unknown fetish about being stimulated by the extreme opposite of what it is that you think is “right.” You know, wrong, as in the Black English ‘you so wrong‘ is what I’m talking about here. Being told to lay ass up face down over the desk of an authority figure, further up on the hierarchy of priviledge, or at least pretending to be, the better. Jade’s body is like a rubber band. I’ve always watched in envy at how painless and easy anal sex from any position of entry is made to seem by most of these girls in porn movies. I guess that’s why they get paid the big bucks, (well, some of them…I think it pays like $800 a scene these days) I actually don’t do anal with clients, or should I say “Greek…” Why? Besides the fact that I never want to feel vulnerable with clients (via both the pain and the orgasm), is that it hurts! But with my real lovers I let it hurt in a good way…but it NEVER lasts as long as you see in the movies. I guess that’s why porn is not my chosen form of sex work. If anyone wants to receive a Greek treatment from me and my strap however, that, is a different story, and one that I like to partake in, especially with men..

But, johns and joes are not allowed the privilege of MY asshole. Only vice versa. I can’t relax enough for it to feel good. And I’m really not interested in having an orgasm with my clients. And if I’m all tense, it hurts, and anal is more of an STD risk than other forms of sex. Oh! I just remembered another example of how movies and real escorting are NOT equivalent. I had two clients once, decided to *try* the DP thing that I see in the movies. Of course the guy in the back gets soft and falls out! He can’t get hard with another guy’s dick under him…blah blah blah…I tried it for a good minute tho, and it was…like love boat: exciting and new…

When I have a strap on in someone’s ass, my penis envy is ALMOST satiated completely, and I feel, indeed, like I think a man, like the professor in the video, must feel. Dominant, dirty, and the deliverer of much needed punishment..

ANYWAY..I’m digressing. The reason I even did a review of Scene #4 of Naughty Little Nymphos in the first place, was because I just did my “Oh Professor!” this week and I had to just SHARE this story with the world!

I did an escort call with a tenured professor at an unnamed college campus in San Francisco in his OFFICE-DURING THE DAY. Tell me my job doesn’t continue to get funnier by the call. It was just hilarious to me because I have actually TAUGHT THERE AS A HIGH SCHOOL TEACHER during a summer session a few years back. I have done ALL KINDS of jobs there now! Too funny, indeed. The sex, was, not like the porn movie AT ALL. Needless to say. I tried so hard to live out my naughty student fantasy for the novelty of the call was so enticing. It is, after all MY fantasy too. But, escort sex just doesn’t work like porn sex or “real” lover sex for that matter. It just doesn’t for most of us. Maybe some. But not usually me. We had to be silent so that stifled his ability to grab my hips and FUCK the shit out of me (which, if I am to be pleasured sexually at all, that MUST come natural to the professor of MY fantasies)

I ended up just doing business as usual, with a fun story to tell my friends and blogging audience after. I could have run off with his $$ when I went back to my car to get condoms, but I wanted to try to make it pleasurable for me too. It wasn’t really, but I think that this won’t be the last study date the professor and I will be having in San Francisco…

Hey, I wrote this song soooo long ago. I just watched the video. LIsten to the words. HOw many of this are in this life to fuel our dreams? Do you call being hounded by every man on the block since we were 13, A CHOICE?

This blog entry is inspired by articles like this: http://www.southtownstar.com/news/brehm/854961,032308brehmcolumn.article

I’ve been following this story and not weighing in on all the internet madness that goes on in the blogosphere. I guess I’m really not a real blogger. I’m too busy on the computer doing work related to running my organization that I don’t have time to do internal work on my activism like blog and/or edit video. Or SING. Or WRITE MUSIC. Music about this movement and my position in it. Ashely Alexander Dupree, I haven’t looked at her myspace, but I’ve heard her song. I’m wondering if she is going to be able to survive this wave and make it to the top. I wonder if she is as driven to succeed as I am. I’ve been adding up all of the different offers that have been proposed to her by Dennis Hoff of the Bunny Ranch, Penthouse, and Hustler. She could be a LEGAL prostitute, completely OUT of the closet and cashing in and set herself up for life, smartly investing in music production and some property. She could set this amazing precedent by actually FILING TAXES as a SEX WORKER. Of course, I don’t know what kind of legal trouble she is in. But what can they get her for OVER the usual misdemeanor. My hypothesis is that whores are stronger than Britney and that Kristin won’t break under this pressure. She’ll just hide out and bide her next move. Then she’ll hit the cover of Hustler, Penthouse and then launch her album. Strike a deal with Flynt and do a concert and strip tease in all the Hustler clubs. AND GET PAID FOR IT. FINALLY. Not let that asshole who exploits, and I DO daresay EXPLOITS not because they are doing sex acts for free or very little money, but because he gets paid off of this both in physical stimulation often, from these willing drunk girls who too quickly become cheap and easy, which is what a working girl even hates, because believe it or not it ain’t your charm that makes us easy, its YOUR MONEY. Girls Gone Wild are cheap because they let a male priviledged producer capitalize off of their actions, again and again and again without ever demanding or even knowing how to go about demanding residuals. So we are always girls going wild but never escaping, sex slaves bound forever; not slaves like in that anti-trafficking is prostitution is ’slavery still exists’ campaign sort of way either…More girls need to go TRULY WILD and REVOLT through the glass ceiling that exists especially in the male dominated media/entertainment/porno industry.

…but I’m only talking about that because i just saw Kristin/Ashley’s Girls Gone Wild. And I shared a Burningman camp with the GGW camera guy one year and he told me how he got them in the hotel room and how they’d just go crazy to be on the show that they would re enact every hetero college guy’s wildest dream and make out with each other and then simultaneously go down on him FOR FREE, or at most for $200.

But, I’m not an Emperor’s VIP girl. I was a craigslist upsell bait and switch agency escort. And sometimes I had sex for around $160 after the agency took their half. So, who am I to talk about being cheap, right? Charging a lot is a priviledge that some working girls NEVER reach and that is part of the problematic thing for most do gooders and even progressive activists. Sucking dick to survive is harsh. I’ve been there too.

But now, thanks to Ms. Kristin I’m trying to reach higher highs in this game. I’m inspired to CHARGE MORE and WORK LESS. Because, somehow, I’d lost my dignity and because I’ve been so deep in the credit card interest debt hole that I’ve had to work as much as possible, even when I didn’t want to until 5am or 6am, AND run my chapter of SWOP. But THANK GOD. and also Thank Kristin for inspiring me to charge more, cuz the year of the rat is ideed bringing the prosperity it promises…

DEVILS ADVOCATE: Okay, MP, why can’t you just see it as “sex positive?” Why you gotta hate on the brother just cuz he’s getting laid with his camera. Haven’t you done the same with your camera? Is it so wrong to use what you got? Maybe everyone doesn’t care if they profit…

I don’t know. I have issues with male priviledge. That’s why I am a sex worker. Dupree is a singer and a whore. This is why I am watching her closely and watching how the music biz is reacting. I wish it were me actually. I am a singer and whore! I am ready to blow up, but I know that the world is definitely not ready for ME! Although, NBC did call me for an interview and I was really nervous about being on national TV…but if Ashley can embrace her inner whore and use it to sell herself smart then she will have successfully made more than the usual percentage for women in this business. I’ve heard all these old school feminists call her disguisting and other things in the media, totally buying into the sanctity of marriage bullshit.

The fact that he is such a hypocrite and liar is the reason why he needs to face MAXIMUM penalities for his CRIME, but after his trial, the world needs to DECRIMINALIZE PROSTITUTION and come expose my ideas on politics, prostitution over music.

December was a month of travel (Kuala Lumpur, Malyasia, Taipei, Taiwan, San Felipe, Mexico, San Francisco), a month of family, a month of boyfriend drama, best friend visiting from Atlanta, jet lag, living on 1/3 of my usual income somehow, sinking into debt, maxing out maxed out credit cards and honoring SWOP-LA’s first year anniversary and The International Day to End Violence Against Sex Workers (December 17th, 2007).  The video below has footage from my visit with COSWAS (Committee of Sex Workers and Supporters), an AMAZING sex worker organization made of 100s of amazing volunteer allies all pulling for the cause of sex worker rights, and some live footage of one of my prosititution songs “Decriminalize Me.”  It also features Annie Sprinkle and Sharon Mitchell, two amazing sex worker activists in their 50s who got their start in the porn industry in the 70s and have made strides and changes for other activists who have followed like me.  

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The GFE acronym in the escort world has come to be known as the “Girl Friend Experience” which is another one of those lovely ambiguous codes for one or many multiple sex acts that occur with prostitutes and their clients have sex for money but are trying to mask their real intentions by using codes like GFE, “full service” and more. Some of them are really explicit as seen in this email between potential client Lance and I, as he lays out all of his expectations for a 2 hour appointment for $500.

after I emailed him my standard discreet reply about how $500 includes a massage with a full service experience of some kind..LANCE: Let’s see Not interested in a massage… waste of time. Full service should include:

• GFE- Girlfriend Experience
• DFK- Deep French Kissing 
• DATY- Dine at the Y
• BBBJTCIM- Bareback Blowjob to Completion In MouthMultiples ((he means I should allow him to cum several times for the price of once))
• Greek ((ANAL SEX…probably without a condom for Mr.Lance, but Greek itself just means Anal))  

I think the above could interest me for a 2 hour appointment. Let me know if it scares you away.Thanks.  MP: i don’t exchange fluids with strangers.sorry.L: That’s cool. I was only able to find one luke warm review on TER. ((NOT TRUE! it’s a fucking 8/10, which is great, even though I hate the review system))  I guess Porn Star Experience(PSE) isn’t on the menu. Oh well good luck with business.MP: that’s EXACTLY it. That’s a great acronym. I’m going to write about it on a blog! Ha. How can you imagine that someone that you don’t know would allow you to cum in her mouth? Of course there are people that WILL always do it. But you aren’t monogamous to ME, as I am not to YOU, nor are we going to get tested together and stay monogamous…so essentially you are asking me to risk my life. It’s like playing russian roulette with semen. Are YOU willing to do that, if I give YOU $500? Okay, then if so, I will let you drink a vial of someone else’s semen and then we’ll be at an even risk.

L: How ironic you fuck for a living and paranoid about diseases?

I’ve heard everything. Take up a different line of work. Oh, with one review on TER and you sell pussy… give me a break. Business must be slow or not worth the price of admission.You have probably been out there a lot longer than your reviews. Under different identifications I guess. Reviews must be badddddddddd!!!!! You’re so special and want $500. I guess the piano lessons didn’t pay off. You keep your fluids and I’ll keep my $500.I could decontruct the power and race dynamics evident in his assumption that because I’m Asian and smarter than him, I must have taken piano lessons, because I “sell pussy” I should give him whatever the fuck he wants, “multiple” times, and kiss him with tongue after he fucks my ass without a condom and cums in my mouth! Yay! And the scary thing like the fucking rest of the pathetic hobbyists on review boards like The Erotic Review who only rank girls a 10 if they are “really bi”, kiss clients on the mouth and of course, my favorite “BBBJTCIM”- Bareback Blowjob to Completion In Mouth…just like you saw in the movies, boys!!Too many men think that the “PSE”-porn star experience that Lance was fantasizing about, is on the menu with their girlfriends, dates, and hired whores! But it’s NOT! And don’t be surprised or offended if it’s NOT! Be thankful that your whore is paranoid about diseases! The Erotic Review encourages the spread of STDs by creating a ranking system that essentially rewards you for putting yourself (as the receiver) at risk, and punishes you by allowing clients to rate you poorly for not participating in unsafe activities. And then we get attitudes like old Lance here, who seems to be completely surprised that sex workers could even possibly be paranoid about STD’s?  ((And if you dear reader are trying to look me up in these review boards to sabotage me, Mariko Passion is not my working girl name, silly trick..)) I determine what is on the menu, when and if I get together with you, I have a right to maintain my boundaries and make those explicit with you …OR NOT. So what, if I put a condom in my mouth and slide it on at the last minute without telling you??LESSON 1 for those of you that didn’t know:Sex workers create FANTASIES.  Porn portrays sexual fantasy.  Fucking without a condom, is a FANTASY for most.  Even oral fucking.  And there is some debate in the porn industry right now about using the 30 day STD test as a substitute for condoms.  If you assume that everything should be on on the menu because you have paid me, you will soon learn an expensive lesson.  And if you think that YOU run the show as the client…and I should have some sort of corporate customer service attitude about you always being right or something, then I have a big dildo waiting to stick in your ass.I just can’t help but think about the girl who will finally allow him to live out his fantasy. Optimistically, I’d like to think that most of the girls out there will just laugh at him. But we never know..It’s always assumed that someone will allow more than you always. This is where the strength of our movement is crucial and peer education and sex worker empowerment programs not prevention and pity programs are more effective than anything…I realize with men like Lance why sex workers ARE the leaders or potential leaders in HIV/STD prevention OR how they could potentially be the catalyst for male privilege, sexism and the spread of disease, even though the spreading of the disease will disproportionately fall on that of the sex worker and continue to uphold the same stigma of being disease vectors that we have been fighting since the beginning of this old profession.

“Happy Endings, American Dreams” photomedia series by Mariko Passion, copyright 2007.

The director of Girl Fest, Hawaii takes a stab at feminist critique of the We, Asian Sex Workers postcard seen in the post BELOW this one, which depicts one of the images that I did as part of the “Happy Endings, American Dreams” photomedia series above that I displayed on the ar+space gallery walls.

“…Notice how this girl on the flyer is made to be or at least look underage, wearing a Hello Kitty jacket– a popular youth logo. Keep in mind, Hello Kitty has NO mouth to speak for herself. This girl is sitting on a bed in a brothel. Below her are the credit card logos of visa and mastercard with the words “BUY FINE ART” in caps. This flyer is not only promoting the pimping and selling of young girls, it is COMPLETELY racist, perpetuation the hyper-sexual underage exotification of Asian women and girls.

To be clear, Girl Fest and I have been working for the rights and protections and services of women and girls with no economic option but to have their bodies sold for sex to survive. We want to get them out of the industry and help them heal. However, WE ARE COMPLETELY ANTI-PIMP and JOHN. We are firmly against the legalization and decriminalization of prostitution. This SWOP/APLE Pimp Lobby is subversively anti-woman, under the guise of the arcane term “Harm Reduction.”

Kathryn Xian and Girl Fest Hawaii (www.girlfesthawaii.org) which also ran a Girl Fest San Francisco the SAME week as the Sex Worker Film Festival and the WE, ASW art show represent the anti-prostitution position that believes that women and girls in sex work are not capable of self determination and that sex worker rights feminists are and should be called out for the PIMPS that they are. She uses Melissa Farley as her source for credible information on why prostitution is harmful. Farley believes that ALL sex work is forced prostitution/rape, all women in prostitution have been prostituted and are unable to consent due to their post traumatic stress disorder, and all male clients are rapists and need to be cured of their insatiable, morose desires.

So, Kathryn showed up at one of our University of Hawaii speaking gigs and called me and the rest of the APLE (Arresting Prostitutes is Legal Exploitation) a bunch of pimps, accused us of taking money from ‘the pimps’, and implying that we make underage girls lapdance at our lapdance fundraisers from SWOP. She was just waiting to throw her accusations at the end of our (Carol Leigh, Stacy Swimme and I’s) presentation, upon which she kept saying,”Hello Kitty has NO MOUTH, Mariko! She CAN’T speak for herself!!” and then in classic high school fight style, she stormed out saying “JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE A QUEER ASIAN FEMALE DOESN’T MEAN YOU CAN’T BE A PIMP, MARIKO!! See you on Monday!” …leaving us to deconstruct her accusations without her….

Before Kathryn’s beautiful illustration/performance of the unreasonable hostility anti-prostitution feminists embody when dealing with sex worker activists in feminist spaces like the Women’s Studies Coalition Meeting of the University, she had sent the above analysis in email blast to all the local feminist organizations. I was honored to have been the subject of her deeper examination. That, after all is the POINT of making GOOD ART. If I have made you THINK, (re)think, re-examine and converse about MY work–then I’ve done something good I think.

and now for some thoughts, STRAIGHT FROM THE KITTY’S MOUTH:

First off, calling me a pimp is CRAZY! Not because I have not perhaps technically participated in what could be considered as pimping (I ran a failed escort agency, which never never profited off of prostitution, it was more like an expensive experiment in advertising debt) believe me, so I’m apt to think it wasn’t pimping). PIMP is a an amorphous, ambiguous, misused and misunderstood term that has a pop culture definition (big hat, feather, gold grill, cane..a Black man usually) and a LEGAL defintion (profiting off the avails of prostitution) which makes an escort agent, a stripclub manager, a boyfriend/partner/husband ALL technically able to call themselves pimps. Then there’s the pop culture def which is like the N WORD in that it’s used just as much in songs and movies but has been so far removed from what it originally was that it’s lost it’s meaning because of cultural appropriation and bastardization.  Just like with many racially weighted and charged words, like the N word.

What do people MEAN when they say the word PIMP? And what does it mean to call a SEX WORKER ACTIVIST a PIMP? And to say that in some way, we are being PAID by pimps is even more ridiculous, cuz if any of you know the rules of the game: REAL PIMPS GIVE THEIR MONEY TO NO ONE, especially not to [NO BITCH.]

Pimps and self determined, independent, outspoken prostitutes like myself and the rest of the activists on the speaking tour with me, would certainly not work together financially. We WISH we got funding for our activist efforts by other donors besides OUR CLIENTS. At best, in some situtations, like with Pam from APLE who did street outreach for years in Waikiki to girls who DID have stereo typical pimps who wreaked stereotypical violence on their workers, the activists and outreach workers who worked on giving the sex workers some sense of POWER, LOVE AND FREE CONDOMS were at best, tolerated.

Hello Kitty was born and created in Japan in 1976, and is “made in China” these days, making her half Chinese and half Japanese and 31, JUST LIKE ME!! The girl in the image is made to imitate the many, many, faceless, long, black haired, shamed, trafficked Asian sex slave that she thinks I really am in that photo.

To be clear, I have been working on giving Hello Kitty a mouth my entire sex work activist career of 9+ years. In this sense, HK stands for the voices of Asian women’s sexuality, Asian feminism, Queer Asian women even. On a more personal note, I do IDENTIFY with Hello Kitty because of her childlike sexuality, it’s true. But that has always been a part of my specifically very hyper sexual, hyper ethnic style of art making and performance art; ever since I was known as the asian****… If Hello Kitty is the voice of Asian women, Asian sex workers, Asian culture then, in every way, with the work that I do, I try to give HK a MOUTH to speak for herself. We, ASW was a group show, not a solo exhibition and it featured the MOUTHS of many many Asian women from Bangladesh to Chicago, and it seems to me that anti-prostitution events like Girl Fest might do the opposite of allowing the Hello Kittys of the world to speak for hersel[ves].

**CLICK HERE TO SEE a COOL VIDEO from the show**